hey yall this is brian i have a new page cuz this one is gay lol

         stEEk_kEy_ricE

link....: http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=stEEk_kEy_ricE

ight lata yall.

         -ricer

hey yall

well i havent entererd n e thing in a while so yea. well im too lazy to post pictures so im not gonna go and do that. hmm i finally got er i mean received my sapphire blue (my favorite color )contacts a few days ago ($190) too xpensive. played more and more halo with the other guys excluding cory. hmm i got blue neon lights for my fathers car and my sis is getting a green 2002 ex civic on friday. finally i can get/give rides for my friends. hmm i played my guitar again and today is the 4th day of our week off. its goin by fast i'd say. me andrew and kevin (note i go first since im more important) lol went to the mall yesterdai and walked all the way to circuit city. boy o boy was that fun. im still waiting for something to happen in my life that i can be happy and proud about. soo tired its like 115 am now g'z hairs getting longer  in the front and back, but i need to cut the back a lil bit to make it shorter. o yea saturdai i can finally get my blue highlights mebbe a dash of red here and there? iono . i feel like im missin out on a lot in life like theres something missing inside dunno what it is yet tho  ne way latelate yall

                                                           - Brian

Hey yall i havent enter ne thing in a long while. n e ways im too lazy 2 type what happened last week so ill save that for 2 morrow. umm yea basically all i did this weekend was go to car dealer places to try and find my sister a car. no luck yet tho. umm also i went to get my color contacts fitted. It cost 50 bux for that. i ended up ordering 2 boxes of sapphire blue (my favorite color) at 190 bux. xpensive eh? well thats life. hmm what else, what else....hmmm well i sat down and looked at old photos of life when i was little.. all i have to say is damn!! lol i grew up and i look much older ,but didnt everyone? n e ways i came across old class photos of my friends in tx , some of whom i dont speak to that much or didnt speak to that much n e way and i juste remembered how everything was.....ahhh the memories!!    i also came across my mother's pics..... to tell the truth, her not being here to see me grow up juste hurts inside. i feel a pain that is hard to describe. Through the 3 years without seeing her face, or  the 3 years without holding her hand once , or telling her about this and that in my life and how much i love her, this pain has dwelled up insideof me . If only my mom didn't die....she would have seen my 5th grade graduation from elementary to middle school. she would have seen me promote to high school. she would have seen me through college and my job career.or when i would get my license or meet my girlfriend.see me start my own family and she could see her grandchildren...but no.....instead she died.....leaving everything behind....including me. now i dont want to sound like a little boy wanting his mom cuz its not like that. i see mostly all of my friends with a loving mom and dad...and I begin to feel reli bad deep inside...like thats what i could have had....my life could have been happy like theirs, if not perfect.  n e ways,  my eyes began to water as i looked on at the pictures. up until now, i have juste about forgotten how my mom looks like. now tell me what kind of life is that.  i knoe i have been neglecting most of all you (friends) and i would like to appologize . i juste needed some time to be alone and to think about everything. I'll start hangin out with u guys again.

                                   -til the next time

                                              Brian